“I’m one with the force and the force is with me.”
I had been delaying this post for several months now and now it is time to tell the second part of the story. This was supposed to be posted four months ago but I just felt reluctant to do so. It’s not easy for me to talk about these things as these are very personal experiences and I’ll be honest — I know I’m already a little loopy (in a good way) but then if someone else who have not dealt with similar experiences would probably label me as delirious. But heck… I know I need to move on and finally get this published since I don’t think I have anything to lose at this point in my life.
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It’s been about 4 months since I had seen Faust’s true form. At first I could not even believe it myself… It was a mixed reaction of “What awesomeness have I done to have this being help me on my journey?” and “Am I actually going crazy?”
I was stubborn and not listening to the signs leading to this revelation. In the last 5 years Faust had been changing forms from a wistful faun to a Tengu demi-god and guiding me through animal spirits such as a bird (an eagle to be exact), a fly, a snake (which is my familiar spirit) and a spider. In the last five years I had been repeating several cycles of unprocessed emotional energy and in each turn of the cycle, a new layer to be discovered, a new layer peeling away to reveal an angle or a direction that I had not explored before and a better understanding of myself and my capability to rise above it.
Leaving home, I had discovered things that I never knew I could actually accomplish. I was given a taste of how to triumph against the odds during my stay in the corporate world but at the same time I had forgotten the reason of why I left home in the first place. I was humbled by bouts of depression and anxiety because I knew deep down, something was not right. This isn’t where I am supposed to be. But then this experience had thought me how to believe and manifest a shift of consciousness to achieve my goals – from a humble level one associate I was able to be promoted in a rapid succession to become a team lead in just about over 2 years. I had inspired some of my peers to believe in their own abilities and shifting the power of the odds is not impossible but ironically material wealth and social recognition was not part of my game changer to make peace with myself thus I had to leave to heal myself at a deeper level wherein I needed to get away from all the noise that the system had set in place to feed the ego but not the soul.
November 2018. I couldn’t really remember the exact date but during this time, my housemate had met two new young friends who had blatantly shown their interest in learning more of the mysteries of the occult universe. I wasn’t really supposed to join them but as they say curiousity killed the cat. Next thing I knew was I was sitting with them at a fast food place and listening to the two young men discuss about their eagerness of learning more about magick and the occult.
I would have to result to using false names to protect these people’s identity as they have just yet starting out their journey. In their own time, they will have to come out of their broom closets themselves. I am not in authority to tell their stories as they will be the one to tell this themselves. What I am about to tell is only how their path had coincided with mine at that point in time in order for me to be assured of the leads I had been shown ever since I had to resign from work a month before this meeting.
Ron and Michael were excited to relay and discuss their experiences in hopes of finding out that magick was real and they would want to know more so they can gain more knowledge on how they can handle their personal circumstances at a new angle. Among the two, Michael caught my attention since most of his experiences hit closer to home with mine.
Michael was a high school math teacher rooted in analytical approaches and deeply in love with conspiracy theories. He had always shown interest in hidden knowledge but was too caught up in looking at it in a commercialized feed rather than trying to see the greater picture. He shared that he had been having a recurring sleep paralysis dream wherein someone kept telling him “open your eyes” but he was too afraid to do so. He then shared that he had always been dreaming of weird symbols and never understood their meaning. He even demonstrated a pattern his seen in a dream by having it as a pattern lock screen for his smart phone and my friend also requested if he can show more of the symbol in detail by drawing it.
As Michael had drawn the symbol, my friend and I somehow knew that this symbol was a sigil from Solomon’s 72 keys and it looked very familiar. We looked it up online using our smart phones and our suspicions where confirmed: what Michael had been drawing all along was Astaroth’s Sigil.
Astaroth, an ancient goddess had been known to have many names and had her roots traced far back to ancient Egypt. Some of the names included Inana, Ishtar and Isis (you can check more information on Wikipedia and other occult blogs). Different names coming from different belief systems but having commonality in energy signatures and symbologies used throughout time. Astaroth has been calling Michael to “open his eyes” all this time. I pondered about this stream of thought and looked back as to how Faust had shifted his images from time to time in order for me to have a better understanding of his energy and personality and actually failed to see where it was all leading to several times because I was too caught up with something else.
Then it dawned on me: the pieces are starting to fall in place. My blood ran cold with the realization. I quickly searched online, frantically looking for the symbologies that I had been shown before if there was something that might relate to Faust’s ever changing form and the odd urges I had been trying to make sense of.
In the past month I had been having the urge to look for the gold ring with a huge blue Topaz stone set on it which I had been wearing before. I had stopped wearing it because the stone fell off one time because the setting got too loose and it needed some fixing and out of the blue I found a way how to fix it so I could wear it again. I had been having this weird urge to wear more gold colored jewelry which was weird for me because I had preferred and love silver jewelry more than gold and to add to that, I kept looking for gold pieces that would resemble a star. I couldn’t understand why but I just went along with it and thought maybe I could find more about it at the right time.
So first thing I did was to Google what connections I could find in relation to Gold and Topaz since this was the more recent nudges I had. I found out their metaphysical properties such as Topaz helps to bring in inspiration for writer’s block and that it was a connected to the Sun element as much as obviously Gold was also tied up with the Sun energy as well. Then along the list… I saw what I was looking for: “To which ancient god was this symbol tied to?”
It was the ancient Sun God, Ra.
I couldn’t believe it at first because it never crossed my mind. Why would such a great spirit watch over my personal awakening and transformation?
Then it gets even better.
A few days after meeting up with Michael and Ron, I did a little more digging. Searched for articles that was not in any way listed on Wikipedia’s references. Dug up more information about Tengu lore that I never did before and understood how one aspect of Faust as a Tengu could be related to Ra such as Ra being a Sky God. Then after jumbling off several search engine key words… I somehow happened to stumble upon an article/document online that really caught my attention that had me very curious for one reason or the other. The title of the document is: An excerpt from: The False Prophet Azazel by John of the Gentiles. Appendix A – The Rose cross of Azazel. (will have a link of the article below) And I quote:
“In her book Witchcraft for Tomorrow p.117 the Wicca witch-priestess Doreen Valiente reveals: ―Ogham was a sacred Druid alphabet and would certainly have contained magic secrets…‖ I would say one of the biggest secrets it reveals is the mystery surrounding the identity of the mysterious Theosophical Society deva known as Master KH with whom many high-ranking members of this society claimed to be in contact. In the sacred Ogham alphabet of the magic practicing Druids, KH was rendered as an X. Master KH, which is the Druid way to say, Master X, was the Hidden Master Azazel himself! This is also the idea behind the word‗Ur-Khaos,‘ the god of the underworld: KH (X) + A (horned ox head sign of the horned god) + O (the disk, a cherub) + S (the serpent), the serpent horned god of the X-marked disk of theChaldean city of Ur (Ur-Khaos was later translated as Orcus, the Gaelic Druidic god of the underworld/abyss).
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The red cross as a symbol of Azazel‘s cherub Behemoth also hearkens back to the Egyptian mysteries of Osiris. The god Osiris represented Azazel‘s cherub Behemoth, and by extension, Azazel. In the Egyptian Hymn to Osiris, the ―disk‖ of Osiris (Osiris = Behemoth) is identified as the ―rosetau,‖ the rose (red) cross (―Divine oblation to Osiris (Behemoth) Khent- Amenti, lord of Abydos…the disk…the rostau‖ – Hymn to Osiris). Cherubim are disk-shaped. It must also be noted the tau cross (rendered in Greek as a T) is the 19th letter of the Greek alphabet. Azazel‘s prophesied release takes place on the 19th day of July 2016 A.D. In Freemasony, the symbol for Azazel, a tau cross, is represented by the T-square. The Rosicrucians, whose name means ―rose cross‖ in German, names their secret organization after the rostau/disk/Osiris/Behemoth. The Germanic name Christian Rosenkreuz, which in English translates as ‗Christian Rose Cross,‘ represents no other persona than the rebellious angel Azazel himself. The name is a play on words which may be interpreted as the christ of the red cross, representing Azazel, whose sign is the red cross, in reference to his future appearance as the false-christ/false prophet/messiah (See Revelations 16:13; according to the Rosicrucian Hargrave Jennings in The Rosicrucians: Their Rites and Mysteries, p.142, the color red is male and represents the Salvator, a Latin word meaning ‗Savior‘). Theosophist Freethinker Ida C. Craddock provides another piece of our puzzle: ―Why did these mystics call themselves Rosicrucian? Some writers have attempted to derive the name from two words meaning “dew” and “cross”: but the usual interpretation is “followers of the Rosy Cross” (read: followers of Azazel) a cross with a rose (used analogously of Azazel) being used as the society’s symbol.‖ – Heavenly Bridegrooms. (It must also be mentioned when one adds the disk (O) [Azazel‘s cherub is disk-shaped], to the word Sirius, it becomes Osirius, and when one drops the ‗u‘ it becomes Osiris. The heliacal rising of the star Sirius in 2016 A.D. takes place on the 19th day of July, the day Azazel in his disk-shaped red-cross emblazoned cherub is to emerge from his earthen imprisonment, claiming to be Christ. In this same way, the Babylonian god Ea, alternatively spelled Ia (another such god which represented Azazel/Behemoth), becomes the name of the Gnostic god Iao with the inclusion of the disk [O]). The words ‗Sirius‘ and ‗Osiris‘ are related to the Semetic word ‗Siru‘: ―Scholars ordinarily refer to the serpent god (who is Azazel) by the name Siru, being the Semitic word for serpent…‖ – p.120, Tammuz and Ishtar (S. Langdon, ―Shillito Reader of Assyriology, Oxford,‖ 1914 A.D. It would also seem the name Isis is also derived from the word Osiris). As an additional added bonus note, in the ancient Babylonian system of Gematria, where letters are used to represent numbers, the number 10 is represented by the letters IA (which Roman numeral isrepresented by an X). ‗Ia‘ of course is an alternative spelling of the name of the god ‗Ea.‘Compare the modern spelling of our number ‗ten‘ to the name of the Egyptian sun disk ‗Aten‘(in Roman, A-X) (AX = IAO = OX). No doubt there exists a connection here. In the pictographic alphabet of the Egyptians, a horned ‗ox head‘ (representative of the horned-god Azazel) was the equivalent of the Roman letter ‗A‘ (and hence was also derived the anarchist symbol for Azazel, an A within a circle/disk [O]). All of these are designations for Azazel‘s cherub Behemoth and by extension, Azazel. Additionally, Ax/Abrasax were synonymous terms: ―You are Ax, you are Abrasax (Ab [father] + Ra [the disk] + S [the serpent] + A [horned oxhead/horned god] + X [ten] (A-ten)), the angel who sits upon the tree of Paradise…‖ (A-X is the Archaic Latin alphabetic version of the classical Greek Alpha-Omega, the title of the resurrected Christ (See Revelations 22:13). Both are the first and last letters of their respective alphabets. Perhaps it signifies a Creator/Destroyer, an angel and the cherub [the word‗destroyer‘ in The Bible is used synonymously with that of the word ‗cherub‘] to which he was assigned). As such an ax is often used as a symbol for Abrasax/Azazel (compare ‗ax‘ to the Greek word ‗aix‘ which means ‗goat‘ (note the addition of the phallic ‗pillar,‘ I). The Hebrew word for a male goat is also used to denote a demon. The demons are the rebellious fallen angels. For this reason Satyrs/demons, representative of fallen angels, are symbolically represented as being goat-like in appearance, such as the god Pan, the king of satyrs, who represented Azazel). The letter ‗O‘ was derived from the Semitic `Ayin (eye), and hence, the‗eye (disk) of Horus,‘ also known as Azazel‘s cherub Behemoth. Constantine‘s ‗IX monogram‘ (also employed by the Merovingians) often encircled with the disk in its various forms is likewise esoterically connected with the false christ Azazel.
cited from: The-Red-Cross-of-Azazel
(NOTE: Ra was also for a time known as a god of the underworld. You can look at more information about this online.)
Did you catch that? I know it’s a lot to take in. I couldn’t believe it myself after reading the whole article and those above are just excerpts. To back it up, I also did several other searches online as to not be biased from taking out everything from just one article.
To sum it up: Faust (Satyr) + Tengu + Snake (familiar) + Ra (Sun god+gold) = Azazel.
Azazel.
Yes, everything led to Azazel. And with that revelation, everything started to make sense.
Although Azazel had been demonized by Christian lore since he led the revolt of Angels against God, Azazel is an angel of transformation — a conscious energy to realize our “godhood” potential. Azazel: the Prometheus Force to help awaken us and to help us ascend and connect to our higher selves.
All of us at some point in our lives will have this shift of perspective: There are no chosen people, only people who chose to wake up. When Azazel came to me as Faust, I believe that he was there to assist me in this personal transformation. The names that he gave me might only be a label so that I could identify with the nature of the energy that I need in my life to help me move forward with my journey. As I have also discovered with my musings on some forums I had joined out of curiosity, there are other people touched by Azazel in the same way across the globe helping them through discover themselves along their life’s journey showing them, as he had shown me, the multifaceted personas of the same energy signature.
Or so I would like myself to believe that I have in fact struck gold with having a “god power” guide me.
Stay tuned as I reveal another discovery in my journey to self-truth.
featured image is from Angelarium.net